Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Really Loving It

So last post was about our struggles and from those struggles came change.  We received official diagnosis,  new OT routine, and a change in how we think about our family.
I have always been of the mindset that kids will adapt.  Do what you need to do and eventually your kids will get use to it.  Again here is where God continues to humble me...I am wrong! That may have worked just fine for my first 2 kiddos but this 3rd one isn't having it.  Well its more then he just isn't having it, he is trying really trying but he just can handle 2 schools with 2 different set of rules.  He also needs his Momma a whole lot more.  So we made some changes.  I have chosen to leave a job I love for my family that I love more.  
Seeing God's Devine wisdom he has been grooming me for this for years, I was just not ready.  We have taken that leap of faith and I will start a small private practice in order to work much less. I will not pretend to have it all together because I  don't.   I am trusting of His plan but I am still scared.
in this time of transition I have been practicing being a stay at home mom.  I have never wanted that title more then I have these last few months.   
When Tyler was born I couldn't even imagine staying home all day.  With Dylan I worked part time and went to school part time and still liked the idea of staying home but still wasn't sure it was something I could handle.  Then Mas came and I wanted to be home so much, but I just wasn't ready.   
This summer has been a great transition from work to home.  It has been slow and gradual. I have some really great kids and as I learn to step away from myself and really see them I am really loving it!

Monday, April 20, 2015


Trying to figure out what our children are trying to say is one of the hardest struggles adoptive parents...heck and parent faces.  Add on top of that a special need and it can become all consuming.  Our kiddos don't always say I'm sad, scared, or overwhelmed.  They scream, pinch, run, cry, shut down, and explode. We are right here right now, and We. Are. Strugglin'

We will be shortly seeking an official diagnosis for our littlest.  He is struggling with so much aggression lately particularly with his impulse control.   It is frustrating to live it with him, but its more frustrating to be him.  
As his Momma it hurts my heart to  watch others struggle with his behavior as well.
 We knew what we were accepting when Mason came home.  We read books, blogs, and talked to another FAS mom about her life.  But Reading about the struggles and living them are TOTALLY  different.  
I am in research mode, which is what happens when life gets tough around here.  So as I research I find more and more of what we are doing all wrong and can try to adjust....the struggle is others.  Getting others to buy into this way of doing things.  When his brother is pinched for the 3rd time when all he wants to do is love on his little brother, when you are overwhelmed with all the work that has to get done and you look away for just a minute, when your job is to keep all the children safe...these strategies are hard to swallow.  It's a different mindset from all other parenting, teaching, and brothering You've ever done.   It involves a God size amount of forgiveness, patience, and grace.  But most of all prayer.  

We are not the perfect parents.  We yell sometimes, we get exhausted, we even doubt ourselves BUT we keep praising God in the hard times knowing He's got this.  

So as we keep chugging along, any spare prayer you could offer for wisdom, patience, and peace is so very greatly appreciated!  

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Just Life

Ever have one of those months that just Flys it's gone.  March was like that for us.  We are now in April and are beginning to finally feel spring.

March was fun but filled with sickness and my poor Mason woke up with a fever today,  so all I can do is pray that with the warmth comes less germs. ;0)

This month is filled with birthday's.  Hubby, then Dylan turns 9, then Grammy's birthday all in the same week.  I love all the cake that comes with birthdays.  
To my surprise Dylan would like to celebrate his birthday with an airplane different it's fun to plan.  So I ordered the printable invitation on etsy, and bought a ton of gliders and we are having ourselves a party!

March was also filled with a fun quick trip to visit friends in Virginia.   Here is some fun we had along the way.


If you could hang on around the curves of this random post, give yourself a pat on the back!!  May God bless your week.

Monday, February 23, 2015


This has been a week of sickness, such a week of testing.   And if we are going to be technical 8 days of icky.

It started on our last day of Family Love Weekend  (but more on that in another post). Dylan woke up and promptly threw up...all over the bathroom floor.   To state the positives, I much prefer children puking on tile floor as opposed to carpeted, thank you very much.  Slight problem, I  didn't turn on the light when I entered to help him and slide on the tile floor...eww.
Grossness aside.  Poor D was sick a good 3 days.
Now remembrance my hubby is an accountant will tell you just what an awful time of year this is to get sick.  During these last 2 weeks of February, there are now sick days and sometimes no weekends.  So when Mason spiked a fever Friday night, I thought "oh just a little  cold, no biggie". But it soon became clear overnight that this wasn't a simple cold.  A 3 year old doesn't think before he pukes, just saying.
Hubby woke from a horrible night sleep feeling just as awful as Mason but he had to pull it together to work a full 8 hours for the 6th day this week.  He works so hard for us.
But poor Mas can't seem to shake the upper respiratory infection and stomach bug combo.  I have been puked on for 3 straight days.  And when it happened today, I just started to laugh,  Cuz really by the 3rd sweatshirt change of the day, there isn't much left to do.
So with 3 down and 2 more to go, we wait.  Tyler came home from confirmation class tonight lightheaded and nauseous, so we prepare for another icky night.  As the Mama I am usually last to get it.  I am praying maybe it will bypass me this time but I know that may just be wishful thinking.

So if you are the praying kind I would love and appreciate all the prayers my kiddos can get.  It is so hard watching them be sick but the snuggles are great!

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Glasses for Mason

So my cute littlest must be going through a growth spurt or something because this kid has a serious case of the whines lately.

His preschool teacher noticed when he tries to really focus on something he closes one eye.  Which wasn't a total surprise as Mason has glasses he refuses to wear.  I diligently made an eye doctor appointment.

Our eye doctor appointments seem to take forever and they usually dilate his eyes when I least expect it.  This part is torture for me.  Drops that sting go into the eyes first.  Then they send you back to the waiting room to wait at least 30 minutes before they call you back in to check.   This is a really rough time for Mason who by nature isn't good at waiting.

Some humorous points while we waited today:
*he made friends with people in the waiting room.
*he groped me while saying "hi baby" to my stomach  (I'm not pregnant )
*he then said "hi food baby" to my belly,, not so funny to me but other enjoyed.
*while whining about wanting to go home  he adds, "I'm going to call China"  totally random.

I was so glad when we were finally done.  We quickly went to look for glasses with a sales person who sounded like a used car salesman.   We picked quickly, took an even quicker photo to show daddy (that's why it is blurry), and we were out of there. A whopping 2 hours after the appointment started.

The blessing in all of this is hopefully these glasses will feel better to Mas so he can truly see the beauty in God's world around him.  And two, we don't have to go for another 6 months.   Yay!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas Morning

I don't know about you but I LOVE Christmas morning.   It's one of the best gifts I receive all year.
To start let me just say that "gifts " is my Love Language (if you don't know what I'm talking about totally Google it. You will be glad you did ) as is time a close second.   This holiday celebrates the birth of my Savior and gives me both of my Love Languages in one.
Such a fan day. We start off with Grandparents over at 6:30 am to open presents.   This year it was like holding back wild animals to keep the kids upstairs till everyone else was settled.  My favorite moment of this was when Mason realized what "it's Christmas morning " really meant.  He gave this great surprised faced and started to run downstairs.   We of course had to stop him as it wasn't time yet but it had us all rolling.  
Next came Santa gifts.   We do one Santa present which is unwrapped and set by the tree. All of the kids had one special gift they wanted.  A Lego set, a Yankees set, and a gi-tar.  Now for those of you who don't speak Masoniese that is guitar.  He has asked, and asked, and asked for a gi-tar for a month now, and this morning his dreams came true.
Jamin with Grampy 
He held on and played all day.  We were serinaded with Jesus loves me, and Twinkle twinkle little star and many more.  The older boys enjoyed playing it too.  

Then it was a quick nap for Daddy and Mason then off to Auntie 's house for round 2 of gifts,  some of the best food ever, and heavenly desserts.   I have some very talented family when it comes to the food department.  

Uncle Peter to hand out the gifts.
Everyone comes home over stimulated and exhausted BUT totally loving their family.  We are now all vegging out on the couches around the house, decompressing in our own way. Our little one asked to go to bed at 6:45 which tells you a lot.  

I'm giving you the very pretty version of our day.  As with any other day there were hiccups of hitting, disappointments, and tears but I'm kinda a "look at the world with rose color glasses" person so let's focus on the niceties.  

I pray your Christmas was Merry and your blessings overflow.  With Love from our family to yours .

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Early Friday morning

So I'm ready for my annual black Friday shopping trip with my bestie.  We have had a sick baby for the last 4 days and she is pregnant so we forego the 4:30 am usual start time for a much more manageable 6am.  Only problem.   I've been up since about 1:30 am.
Mason slept so much better last night,  so it would only go without saying that I should have too, right?!
My brain woke up about midnight thinking it was 5am.  Hubby quickly shared it was only midnight so off to sleep I went again...I woke up again.  Surely it is 5am NOW. Nope only 1:30 am.tried and tried to go back to sleep.  There are so many nights I wish the clock would just freeze so I could enjoy more sleep.  Today was that night that it felt as time was standing still and I would look over at the clock and see 2:12, 2:42, 3:10.  Ok if I'm still up by 4am I'll get up.  As I laid there my mind processed  how great Thanksgiving was minus the sick kiddo.  How much fun the train will be tonight  (we are headed with a whole lot of family  to a train ride with Santa ); How much work I have to do at work; I wonder how so and so's trip is going; why am I stressed it's only 3am, I should pray about that, etc, etc, etc.   4:01 came and I got up and took a fabulous warm shower, once the furnace woke up.
So here I am now...all ready to go.  An hour and a half early. :0/
So I got to thinking of all the reasons I love this time of year.  Family,  traditions, cookies, presents,  love.  I get to feel the love this time of year that I know is always there it is just on display now.
Let the Christmas Prep begin!