Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Really Loving It

So last post was about our struggles and from those struggles came change.  We received official diagnosis,  new OT routine, and a change in how we think about our family.
I have always been of the mindset that kids will adapt.  Do what you need to do and eventually your kids will get use to it.  Again here is where God continues to humble me...I am wrong! That may have worked just fine for my first 2 kiddos but this 3rd one isn't having it.  Well its more then he just isn't having it, he is trying really trying but he just can handle 2 schools with 2 different set of rules.  He also needs his Momma a whole lot more.  So we made some changes.  I have chosen to leave a job I love for my family that I love more.  
Seeing God's Devine wisdom he has been grooming me for this for years, I was just not ready.  We have taken that leap of faith and I will start a small private practice in order to work much less. I will not pretend to have it all together because I  don't.   I am trusting of His plan but I am still scared.
in this time of transition I have been practicing being a stay at home mom.  I have never wanted that title more then I have these last few months.   
When Tyler was born I couldn't even imagine staying home all day.  With Dylan I worked part time and went to school part time and still liked the idea of staying home but still wasn't sure it was something I could handle.  Then Mas came and I wanted to be home so much, but I just wasn't ready.   
This summer has been a great transition from work to home.  It has been slow and gradual. I have some really great kids and as I learn to step away from myself and really see them I am really loving it!